example numero uno--my senior year of high school i went to guatemala with a group from my church for 10 days, and didn't once email the parents...not even to let them know that i had arrived safely. the funny part is that i made sure that one of my friends emailed his family right away. slightly ironic.
example numero dos--last january i went to greece to study ancient greek theater through luther. i was gone for 25 days. i emailed the family twice. once when i got there. and once when there was a bomb threat on parliament in athens just to let them know that i was alive.
i'm such a considerate daughter, no? thankfully, the parents have known this about me since i was about six. apparently i made a list of all of the places that i wanted to travel in my lifetime, and i think the number was up to at least 20. pretty intense for someone who doesn't know to make toast without burning it. needless to say, mother and father resigned themselves to the fact that once i went off to college, they probably wouldn't be seeing a whole lot of me.
this time, though, i'll be peoplesick. yes, i made up that word, but it gets across the point that i want to make. and actually, it'll probably mostly be personsick.
now don't get me wrong, there are lots of people that i will be missing when i'm abroad, no doubt about that. but i know that i will specifically miss the boy most of all. i'm sorry mother/father/brother braden--i promise that i love you toooo :) it's just that it seems like i've spent the majority of my fall semester with the boy (when i'm not going to classes, obviously) and it's been incredible. the boy and i met 2 summers ago working at sugar creek bible camp, and started dating this past summer. i don't know what words to use to describe our relationship besides amazing, loving, and God-centered. and according to weaver, "the two of you together are obnoxious, plain and simple. but not a bad obnoxious. i just can't believe some of the random conversations that you have. i can't even get a word in! your brains are...i just don't know". i don't think real adjectives really do it justice. which is fine, because you probably have had enough of me talking about it. so, i'll spare you from any more of my sappy feelings. for now anyway ;)
this personsick revelation hit me last night as i was trying to fall asleep in my dorm room for the last time until i come back to luther as a senior. it made me feel old. i'm almost 21, but i sort of still feel like that incompetent 6 year old trying to make toast. i don't yet know what i want to do with my life, which is slightly nerve-wracking. BUT i know that God has a plan and i will eventually find out what that is. i've just got to trust that things will turn out according to His will. prayers would be greatly appreciated!
and as i prepare to leave luther until next august,
i hope that you all have a very merry and blessed christmas and spend time with those who are truly important to you.
